I know this means something

I have been playing basketball literally my whole life. All of a sudden, after my high school career ended, and now that I am presented with the option of playing in college, I have the urge to stop playing. I don't know what's wrong with me. I used to get mad at people when they quit playing basketball. I couldn't see why anyone would want to quit, or how they could quit for that matter. It is hard to explain the way I feel about basketball at this point in my life. I am still trying to recover from the constant stress and physical and mental exhaustion from the system I have been in for the past 5 years of my life. Now that I am on the outside looking in, I don't see how or why I abided by some of the things I did. I know that without being apart of the Lady Dolphin/Lady Fire/Irvin family, I would not be the person I am today, and I would not have met some of the best friends I've ever had. I was apart of something epic, and I appreciate that daily, but some of the heartbreak and disappoint I've experienced with basketball is tough. It takes a lot out of you. There are some things I wish that would have happened differently, but I'm not going to sit here and dwell on them. I love basketball to death, but I don't have the desire to be in a system like I was all through high school. I don't want it to the be be all end all of my life like it has been so far. I want it to be enjoyable 100% of the time, I can't afford to be emotionally affected negatively by basketball anymore. I have a huge drive and desire to go to college and finish at the top of my class. I don't think I can play D1 college basketball and graduate at the top of my class and intern and network etc. I am willing to sacrifice what I love the most for my success. I KNOW that means something.